Sometimes It feels like I only ever come to write when something stressful presents itself or to vent about life. But as I wrote, I realized it’s more so after I have gone through whatever triggered me enough to teach a lesson or allow some quiet reflection that allows for some time and healing.( Which never ends)
So I think I’ve mentioned this in previous writing, but when I was younger and I was bullied, my dad made me look in the mirror and say these affirmations. Well in some of my personal work lately I’ve been doing affirmations again but more centered on choosing myself. Less people pleasing. The way my energy has shifted is incredible. I feel it. I no longer want for so many things and I’m so good with that. I’ll happily be on the woo woo train again to say affirmations work. You don’t have to believe in much, but you should believe in yourself 😉.
Anyway, the lessons … Life has been good. I haven’t been able to complain about anything that really matters, since none of this does anyway . But life’s almost so good that I knew that shoe was gonna drop any minute now. I waited and listened and maybe that was why. The universe said , bitch you asked.
I ended up finding out I had electrical issues that weren’t safe, and it’s a good thing I didn’t plug my Christmas tree in that day I was like hmm skeptical, because that was the fried receptacle. It’s going to cost me the most I’ve had to spend since buying my home and I was sick to my stomach last night. It has to be done and it is what it is. I spent the night crying but I knew it would pass and I’d be okay in the morning. Thank God I had Chloe because it was 55 in the house without the heat on and I needed her as my warmth. Honestly grateful nothing has happened the last 6 years I’ve been here!
I used to freak the fuck out and lose my mind over this shit when financially burdening things happened… But now I just breathe and deal with it. Of course I small panic, but I always know things are going to work out. I was telling my chiropractor this morning when she asked how I was and she said oh your Dad always said things always have a way of working themselves out! I agreed. Somehow they do.
Now that I’m choosing me that means choosing this expensive electric panel and spending all my time at home to admire where all my money went 😭😄.
Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving ♥️Grateful for everyone and everything this universe has given me. thanks for coming 🫶🏻
Unapologetically Sam 